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Embodied patience is something I am greatly accustomed to. As a child, it seemed I was always waiting for something. Branching opposite of an ailing atmosphere, the opportunity to leave an abhorrent home life, someone to love me in a healthy way, or to just be simply noticed.
Until these present moments, while thinking back to when I grew older, I may have subconsciously programmed this learned mode of waiting into some of my dream goals for in my life. It is interesting to note that I expected to wait for positive things to occur for me. This was the only way I knew how to defend against the feelings of hopelessness caused by my abuse.
Now that I know I may unknowingly be continuing this waiting game in my healing process today. Along the way, I’ve discovered so many wounded parts of me that I have to place my Life on hold until I am completely whole. I could be shelving relationships, career goals, & even happiness until I am healed. These actions are a mistaken belief that the child-within still grasp to.
Today I command that the child-within no longer has to be perfect to receive what she deserves. She no longer has to pause Life to live in joy & gratitude. In these moments I can recognize & acknowledge which parts of me need healing & understand any limitations I may have through awareness. As I persist to grow & heal, establishing extra self-care & risks so that I am always in the flow of Life. Today I honor my active persistence in Life, not just an observer who is waiting for her turn.
Shaw Nee Janelle