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Fear is as near to me as breathing. At moments it manifests itself as anxiety & can easily escalate into a total shock of terror or even into a panic. It is an emotion I have had for an extensive amount of time & one I seemed to experience on a routine basis.
Some moments the intensity was so unforgiving where I felt that it wasn’t meant for me to survive the pain. The emotion can clearly take on a life of its own.
Learning from my own unique experience, all children need to form a healthy fear of harmful things. This is how they learn important critical thinking skills to make wise decisions about their safety. However, as a child sexual abuse survivor, I was subjected to traumatic experiences that would disallow any chance I might have had to see fear as an ally.
During my recovery & recharge processes, I have found that I can walk through any emotions which leads to fear that could spring up. I begin by being attentive to my breathing so that it’s naturally free-flowing, getting grounded in the present moments, & by creating a sense of security around me. Secondly, I reassure myself that I can tolerate the feeling.
I can either choose to express the frequency imbalance or not. I’m careful to not analyze at this time what’s causing the fear. That will come later. I may be surprised that most of the pain & anger highlight the terror & anxiety.
All these emotions were trapped within my child-self, & today I am helping her at last to express them. Fear doesn’t have to cripple me, stealing my freedom. Each time that I feel my fear & mow over it, I am diffusing the power of the offender. I am expressing that I will no longer be restricted by my abuse. I will feel the fear, take action, & move on in spite of it! My child-within no longer needs to hold onto terror. I will help her remove it so that we may both live in the present moments.
Shaw Nee Janelle